Haiti Project Blog Post- 15

Haiti Blog Post 15- January 19, 2012

Broken…

Today I feel broken.  My body dreams of a hot shower, the bug bites are more than I can bear, and I am weak.  God has clearly called me to Haiti.  To experience this country in ways I never thought possible, to be with His children in Haiti, and soak in their lives and their hearts.  But, today I feel broken.  I have been praying for God to give me strength and to remind me that Jesus himself went through so many advertises all in the name of God.  I can do this; I have God on my side.  But today, I am searching for meaning and understanding.

It has been a long three weeks.  Although I have loved being here and understanding a country and a way of living that is so different than my own, I long for what is comfortable to me.  Maybe that is the point, to get out of my comfort zone and to be reminded that so many have so little.  When I complain about not having a partner in my life or even complain that there is no hot water.  I reminded that these things are so insignificant.  The people of Haiti live with so little, they have treated me like gold, and everyday with a huge smile and a warm heart.  Dear God, thank you for introducing me to these kind and special people.

This isn’t a post to make you worry or feel sorry for me.  It is just real and truthful about my brokenness in this day. 

Blessings,

Mary Balfour