Transformation

Sarah Kapostasy graduated from Seminary of the Southwest on May 13, 2014 with a Master of Arts in Counseling.  

 

I was really at a crossroads in my life when I decided to pursue my Masters in Counseling. Frankly, I was in a place where I had not been good at forgiving myself and accepting my imperfections, and was experiencing a crisis of confidence.

Entering the Seminary was a bid for control. I figured this would give me a professional path, some letters behind my name. What I discovered, of course, was that this degree was not just about jumping through hoops to achieve the objective of becoming “a Licensed Professional Counselor.” Along the way, I had to let go of control, reflect, and look deep inside myself. I discovered my strengths and weaknesses, which paradoxically were often one in the same. 

I learned things in books about relationships and parenting, and then had the lab of my own life in which to apply some ideas, for better or worse. God bless my partner, Mel, for enduring this (among other things) during my time at the Seminary. 

I learned in my theology classes what it means to have a calling, and started to realize what it takes to be the sort of person who runs towards suffering rather than away from it. This meant, of course, acknowledging my own suffering, and my position of strength as well as vulnerability as a wounded healer.

I understood how the love of God, expressed through Jesus Christ and living in the Holy Spirit, gives us permission to love others wildly in all their humanity; I learned to wildly love myself. In short, I experienced personal transformation, in the process of becoming authentically human, and accepted of all the realities that come with this. 

My professors, my fellow colleagues in the MAC Program, and my supervisor and the clients at my practicum site have all facilitated this transformation, for which I am grateful beyond words. As I move forward from this place, I just hope I can be a small agent of transformation in the lives of those I am called to serve.